another night spent lying awake thinking...about all the bad, the horrible, the everthing. my past, present and future are all scary places. i have no where to turn to that has happy memories. i want a better life for me. a life that i want to remember, and not hide from the world. days that i spend waiting, waiting for everything to be better. even though i know, i can't change who i am. i can't change who i'm supposed to be. it's my life to deal with.